Walking by the sea was never something that she did to relieve herself from thoughts. For she didn’t have a sea in her hometown. Coming to the new town, even for a couple of months has been helping her quite a lot. She wanted to stay from all that connected her to the used to be normal, regular life which she hoped and believed would be the one she will have for the rest of her life. But what all she had to bear in just a year!
A crow’s caw brought her back to the present.
The rhythm of the waves churned her memories, both good and bad, of sweet love, bitter fights, serious discussions, hopeful dreams, colourful promises, comfort and pleasure, tears and anguish. She could neither count them nor put them in an order now. There were too much of everything. She felt a throng of pain somewhere inside. She wondered how her heart can stay alive after all that happened..
A tear drop rolled down from her eyes. A soothing wind blew it away from her face..
The sand tried to stick to her feet, but couldn’t as she hadn’t wet her feet. She watched as the grains of sand washed itself away from her feet as she moved on. “May be it was like this between us,” she thought. But at the back of her mind she knew, and for very much he too knew well that she had always tried her best to be there for him. “Just like these grains of sand,” She sighed.
The sound of someone playing flute for some random tune reached her ears..
She watched the couples walking hand in hand, parents having a splash with kids, photographers trying to click away their best shots of the sunset, sellers and buyers of all kinds, also some others like her, simply looking towards the horizon. “Will anyone here be like me trying to hide from it all?” She wondered.
The sky was deep red imparting its colours to the blue sea..
“I have waited long enough. I tried my best to make him understand. I just wanted him to prove himself.” The thoughts flooded her again. But to drown them all, she knew the bitter reality. He didn’t give it try. Or rather he never tried. And the last and final bit, He failed her! She was strong on the inside now. For she had cried many times and had had many sleepless nights for thinking about the same thing. “Why couldn’t he just try?” The question to which she will never find an answer for, she had a sarcastic smile in her lips..
The sun was about to set displaying an extravagant brilliance of colours in the sky..
“I have done all that I can! I don’t have it any more in my hands.” She thought aloud in her mind. “I have always loved you, I wanted to be yours, I was there every time you needed me..” But… Simply wishing that I would be yours was not just enough for us. “I wanted you to try. At least once. You haven’t. I wish you nothing but the best; And, You have lost me!” She looked up to the sky. She thought “Is this what You call fate?”
She started walking towards the sea. The waves touched her feet. The cold water was soothing to her. She watched closely again as the water washed the grains away this time. No trace of it anymore. “Yes, its over!” She whispered.
She heard someone calling her name. She turned to look behind her. She saw someone with a warm smile walking towards her.
“You okay? Sorry I am a bit late.” He said. “Yes, I am. I was entertaining myself!” He took her hands and they started walking hand in hand, he explaining how the traffic made him late, how busy the day had been, the FM radio song he had been listening to.. blah blah blah.. She nodded all the way along.
She paused for a second and looked at him. Gave him a smile, thinking, “I owe you for understanding me. I like you for picking me up from bits. And today I can say, I love you..” She stood in front of him looked into his eyes and said “Thank You..”
He smiled, squeezed her hand and started walking again. This time an all knowing silence hugged their conversation.
It was already twilight. The north star twinkled somewhere far north in the sky…